"how long before I die of dehydration?"
I’ve been having trouble gathering myself enough to really do anything productive (or at least anything I deem productive with my time.)
I blame the crippling depression, mostly.
Things I could be doing:
Seriously, though, this depression. I feel so fucking horrid and awful.
I want to get myself out of this so I can work and get in my zone (DON’T LET ME GET IN MY ZONE) but I feel like I’m losing grasp on what I’m working for anymore.
Particularly of concern or on my mind:
I’m writing about my mental health stuff without much concern or apology; It’s not something I really feel embarrassed about. I’ve never NOT been depressed, and It’s kind of my thing. So why not Zoidberg?
I’m hoping for an upswing to come before I have to force myself into hypomania next month when I go back to work.
I suppose that’s what I’m doing now and until April - working on my upswing.
Okay, so I have insomnia, which leaves me sort of in this perpetual state of low frame rate and/or tripping balls. Between being up ALWAYS and not really having friends that I talk to, I figure I’d start writing on here in addition to posting my crappy drawings.
I’ve never been particularly good at writing or keeping a journal.
I think because I try to compartmentalize and edit everything, it kind of makes me rubbish at sharing anything.